After being rescheduled due to missing blood work (the neurologist's fault, though they'll deny it) I got a call yesterday to reschedule AGAIN for next Tuesday because she wouldn't be in on the rescheduled date.
No, I STILL don't know the results of all my testing. After this appointment, and seeing how she handles herself and listens to me, there's a chance I'll be shopping for a new neurologist.
I'm actually better physically, in spite of her. My rheumatologist was right - when the disc started getting better, the numbness has started to get better.
Naturally, I'm anxious about meeting the chiropractor on Friday. I want to get ALL the past info lined up for him, with dates and what happened, ALL the meds/supplements I'm taking, all my health problems, all THEIR paperwork, body maps sketching out all the places I have trouble, what kind of pain I feel and documenting by date when I felt them. rat finally had to 'talk me down' because I had a gripping feeling in my chest I knew was just stress/adrenaline/anxiety.
I'm now using lavender oil to calm myself down - seems I'm worse than I thought when it comes to anxiety/stress/adrenaline rushes. It presses my temples and crawls across my head and makes my chest clench. I do deep breathing, too. Pisses me off, since it's probably something ELSE I'll have to deal with for the rest of my life and I really want to deal with it without prescription drugs if possible. Though if I can find something that will kick my adrenaline back in-line and turned off/calmed down until it can be reasonable again, then I'd probably be willing to take drugs for a short period of time. Honestly, I want the stuff hovering over my head (and crawling across my skull) to be resolved.
We still haven't unpacked yet. While I'm now OUT of actively shopping for a house, rat is doing it and there's a slim chance something wonderful will land out there for us to purchase before the April 30th deadline. That keeps me from doing any unpacking or bringing my dolls home.
The idea of unpacking is daunting, too, especially since my physical health is so bad at the moment.
I look at the boxes and realize I could probably get rid of a LOT more and be fine with it - but not really. Like our LPs. Some are irreplaceable since no CDs have been made of them.
I need to reorganize a lot of stuff and try to SELL some things instead of just dumping them at Goodwill or Halfprice Books or trash.
Okay, another whiff of lavender oil and back to work.
Thanks: --> to Lia, my sensei, who has inspired me to draw again. I
wouldn't be doing this without your support, Domo Arigato!
--> to Talon, for sending me her fabulous fics, inspiring me with her writing to draw my first
illustration for a story and actually liking what I drew.
--> to Dasia, for her words of encouragement when drawing her original chara.
--> to Joules, a wonderful epic fic writer, for liking my art enough to want to post them with Talon's
and her own stories.
--> to Lutra, the other half of the epic team, for being so supportive.
--> to Jacque' & Becca Raddittzu, we met on eBay as bidder and sellers and now we are face-to-face
friends. You showed us the real DBZ with your fansubs. It's all your fault the house is full of
doujinshi! *LOL*
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